Mixed Feelings

[ihrketayhl]

So, not even a week after quitting The Job, I've got my next one lined up. I didn't even have to APPLY, guys; these people CALLED ME. I start Monday. And it's the same sort of work, only better-organized and slightly better paid.

But I don't know. I feel like I still haven't totally worked through the PTSD (sooooo not being facetious here). I'm still having work nightmares. I'm still unable to talk about The Job in a way that isn't twitchy and hysterical. And here I am, not even a full week off (because most of this week I've spent cleaning or doing things that I didn't have opportunity to do for months because of The Job), ready to jump back in.

...Is it bad that I'm kind of hoping it's terrible, so I can quit without guilt?

I just want a vacation, that's all. A real vacation. I swear I won't be idle. I'll get things done. I just want my own length of time to do them in.

I know I should be thrilled at getting a job so quick, but I wasn't kidding when I said I was prepared for a few months unemployment. I was kind of hoping for that.

Not really expecting any advice from anyone, but if you have it, I'm open. :(

Comments

[fruitsgrow.livejournal.com]

is it possible to delay when you start your new job? at least by a couple weeks so you have some breathing room?

[sakuracorr.livejournal.com]

I think that's a normal reaction to the situation.

Hope it works out.

[silverfyre.livejournal.com]

Awww Jessy, good luck! I hope it is nothing like your old Job. Also I'm sure since you are new, they won't give you lots of hours, so maybe you will atleast have some free time in which to transition over, and also to have some time for yourself so you won't feel overworked?

I understand the need for a break though, hopefully you get a real one soon.